do you ever get in one of those moods where you’re like feeling okay but you’re really sad at the same time and you just want to talk to someone and make them hug you but you feel annoying so you kind of just sit there being really sad
We must look like any casual group of friends, the three of us. Sitting in a corner of one of those huge café’s you get in the corner of a supermarket. And we’re smiling, because we’re happy to see each other. But underneath the smiles is this big hole. Its the elephant in the room. A dark shadow. None of us mention it. We just keep to the small talk. Funny, we only saw each other a week ago but so much has happened since. It feels like forever. I still feel sick, I want to go and curl up on my bed but I also realise I won’t see them for three weeks, so I struggle on through. We’ve always been an awkward group of friends but its feels like I am running up hill as I try to keep the conversation going. It’s snowing outside so why is it so bloody hot in here?! My sleeves are subconsciously rolled up as I ask how my friends have been. The guy who’s answering falters as he spies my wrists.